...You

I don't know what to do anymore! I've stopped! I've completely stopped ok?! Is it not enough that I took time out of my life to call you? Just to say hello and talk like the decent person you asked me to be? I don't know. I don't know what to do with you anymore!

First I called my ex to apologize for what I've done AGAIN (except this time I didn't actually do anything wrong)! Then he tells his freinds to make fun of me (more like unnecessary harassment) saying that I'm a whore, a bitch for calling him (my ex) in the first place. One of his freinds (a guy) told me I'm a good for nothing mother for giving up my baby! What the fuck! I just said "kid you don't know me. I don't know you. I just asked to talk to derek to solve all of this." I said it in the most nicest way I could. Then this guy (who I don't ever need to meet!) said "fuck off bitch!". The leaste he can do is be decent and just say "leave us alone! No one needs talk to you!" but not even that.

One: I thought derek's parents taught him better than to harass others just for fun
Two: I thought derek had some decency to talk like a normal civilian like what he asked me to do

He should follow what he preaches.

Now his friends are harassing me for things I thought that they had no clue about. So the only thing I'm thinking is only derek knew I'm a mother! Only derek knew that I had sex with him! At leaste I thought only he knew anyways. Instead of being a decent man and just letting this all go, he told all his friends whatever he wanted. For what? So, I figured, that would be the ONLY way any of these strangers would know anything about me, right? Whatever they knew about me they heard from derek. So now that that was figured out; done was done right? NOT even close! I just searched around deviantart dot com. I met Thomas (one of my freinds on deviantart) and Anna (my other friend on deviantart). I told them the truth; all of this from my stand point. Ok they told me the truth right back; that I deserved to be dumped for cheating on derek. But they also told me "What you're getting is harassment. You have to do something about this. We have to do something. We can't just let these kids run wild and talk garbage about anyone!" But I just thought that leaving this alone would make it go away. So I did, that was, until I read a bunch of things that were and are still directed at me personally. A whole LONG journal was from a person I don't even know. So I did a little researching. This person apparently knows both my exs derek and my other ex joe (the biological father of my baby). I searched this person up and I found images from joe to this person which explains the fact that this person knews joe. Then I was looking around derek's gallery making rude comments. I'm ashamed to say this truth. I would have apologized publically for the mean words I said but he blocked me so I had no way of saying any sort of an apology on his comments. I thought that would be good. I thought "done, end of story". NOT! Apparently most, if not all, of his friends on this site and beyound signed up here there just to shoot me back. I told them "kids I tried to apologize for my actions but he blocked me so I couldn't". They went on to taunt me calling me a fake, a whore (again), and a bitch (again). Most of which my fiancee and I've already heard from his friends first hand. So the only way to shut them up was to e-mail derek directly.

I said in the nicest way I knew how that if his friends don't take down all the garbage they have been saying about me I will charge them for harassment!

I never found out until today if he ever read that email. I heard on my phone's voice mail that he went to the Oshkosh Police to call me on harassment charges (I think).

I've had it! His friends called me a good for nothing mother who only gave up my baby because I couldn't do anything was bad enough! But when I went and searched up my user name on deviantart.com and found a journal and stuff saying how horrible I am I just had it!

Just now, I emailed him saying exactly this:

Fine. I've asked nicely before. I even tried to apologize to you for the crap commnets I wrote on deviantart about you. I would have wrote it in the comments on your page but you blocked me. How would I even had apologized then?!

I asked you in the nicest way I know how to tell your friends to leave me alone! Instead they go and post all this crap about me! This is only PART of one example:

...annoyance, and being a total B... I mean, pain...

(It came from the journal I mentioned.)

I'm betting with no doubt that this girl is the one calling me a bitch is the same girl that was screaming at me for calling you last time. I called you ONLY to resolve what was never fixed. I thought you, being the decent, person would understand and just say "go away" but instead you put all your friends on the phone to harass and torment me! If that's not harassment then I don't know what is!

I have my fiancee to prove all of this! He was listening in on all the crap that your friends were saying to me! He was the one to say just leave it alone. That was until he read all the mean and disgusting things your deviant art freinds were posting about me.

I have had it up to here with you! You want a fight! You've got one! I am getting a lawyer! You better get ready to settle all this crap harassment in court! You sent all your friends to harass me on deviantart.com! Not to mention one of your guy friends said I quote "you (chong) are a good for nothing loser who just gave up your baby. You are a good-for nothing mother!". And of course my fiancee was hearing that too. He just told me that guy is just mean.

You want a fight, You've got one!

That is it! I've kept my silence long enough! I even TRIED to apologize to all those I've wronged but instead of getting "no problem's" and whatnot I got this slew of garbage that just attacked me back. If he wants a fight so badly then I'm getting him what he wants! I'll assure that he'll be the one taking back all the mean things he's been saying about me behind my back! I'm sticking that "ticket" right back in his face! I've had it with them saying garbage about me! I'm doing something about this NOW! I'm ending this! If I don't end this now, all the harassments against will never end!