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You ChooseI'm sorry honey, please don't weep
I made a promise I can't keep
Now hush darling it'll be okay
You have so much to live for, please one more day
A little girl, playing near the well
Would you be able to forgive yourself if that little girl fell?
A guitar, staying nearby
Won't you give that song a try?
Fall asleep and wake up crying
But babe is that really worth dying?
I told you I'm fine but that's not all true
Truth be told I'm dying without you
If I leave you now
It's really just a matter of how
I told you I'd be okay
But babe I can't take another day
Please for me
Please try to stay, to see
I'm weak, but you're so strong
Realize that following my example is wrong
Put down the gun
Stand in the rain and try out the sun
Don't try to forget me
But don't let yourself miss me
Remember that it's you I love
I just couldn't take another hit, the extra shove
You're not to blame
I'm the one with all the shame
Just promise me when you wake and I'm gone tomorrow
Don't let my example be the one
The HospitalThe walls keep closing in
Such a frightening surprise
The ceiling's coming down
What an unpleasant demise
The filter's barely running
Is there no water or is it just me
The doorbell keeps ringing
Wonder who that could be
The ground is getting closer
I reach but fall anyway
The air is slowly seeping
Through the cracks and into the hallway
The breaths keep getting shorter
I feel a buckle in my knee
The coughing keeps getting harder
Now is that blood I see
The paramedics say calm down
But I know there's no point in fighting
The lights are mixing with the sound
Now from night into white-lighting
The walls come at me from all directions
Another turn, here we go again
The breaths won't come anymore
And now here we go, one more spin
The coughs are choking
Blood is everywhere
The glass is breaking
Oh god this isn't fair
The footsteps are pounding
Are they coming near or going there
The pain is unrelenting
Is that bright light growing, dear
The morphine won't kick in
Is it night or is it day
Whats this play called again?They say hold it together honey
But I'm falling apart
They say play it safe
But I gave you my heart
They tell me lies
Like the promises you will never keep
They tell me things
Like how to not take that leap
They whisper words in my ear
And tell me not to trust you
They shout again at me
And tell me how I'm wrong to choose you
They ask me questions
But I don't have an answer
They ask me things
But they might as well be spreading the cancer
They push in needles
Feel the morphine drip
They inject poison
Feel the numbing in every fingertip
They think they're helping
But I'm just getting worse
They think everything's fine
But someone help me, things aren't going as rehearsed
CommasNever mind the goodbye,
It's much harder than hello.
Never mind the goodbye,
I don't want it to be so.
Never mind the goodbye,
I don't want this to end.
Never mind the goodbye,
This isn't a come-and-go trend.
WantI want to be your first thought in the morning,
Your last thought at night.
I want to be your favourite hello,
And the one to whom you never want to say goodbye.
I want to look at your words,
And know that they're for me.
I want to read your lips,
And not have this doubt in the things you say.
I want to be your shoulder to cry on,
To be your strength when you're torn and weak.
I want to be your light in the dark,
To hold you close when you feel alone.
I want to be the reason for your smile,
The one that isn't forced.
I want to be the light in your eyes,
The one that never burns out.
I want to be your reason,
Selfish as it may seem.
I want to be your only one,
I want you to love me.
Where Am I?I'm lost
Everything I've ever had
All I am
My heartbeat stills
Yet the water still ripples
As I sink to the ocean floor
My cries are drowned out
For the yelling will not cease
My voice is gone
For no one's here to listen
My words aren't lies
But no one believes me
I sit here in silence
Watching it all turn to ashes
A place so broken
A time so still
It all ends with the beginnings
As heaven mixes to form hell
Plaid Dresses, Rainbow HeartsShe drew rainbow hearts across rain-soaked pavement
Hoping they wouldn't get washed away.
But each time the second half was drawn
The rainclouds would come out to play
She believed in a world of fearies
Sat for hours hanging paper hearts
Not on her sleeve but on her wall
Just to see them torn, bound to fall
She laughed at the horror movies
Shuddered at the mention of the grim reaper's name
She cut just deep enough
To forget how close to her skin her mother held the flame
She ironed her hair
Or left it a curly mess
She danced in the rain
And wore jeans under her dress
With sharpie ink
She'd line scarves
And to her skin went a blade
Trying to forget with each letter she'd carve
She smiled at the smell
Of wet leaves on an autumn day
She fronted a carefree life
Of wishing her problems away
She forgot the stories
Her grandfather told
She remembered the nightmares
In which her fears would unfold
She closed her eyes
At the sound of an infant's wail
She tried to drown out thoughts
With no avai
To lifeTo the relenting lover
Do you realize the position you put yourself in
Each love comes on so strong
Yet dies, leaving you weak
They spare not a thought for you
The words that haunt you are the words you are so quick to speak
To the dying child
Look what you've done
You've brought comfort
With arms too small to wrap around
And a laugh that tugs on each heart
You cry and to words they listen
Every time your heartbeat weakens they fall apart
To the fighting couple
Listen to yourselves grow louder
See your child shaking
Needing to be held
Your little girl wants to know it'll be okay
But every word you toss
Every object you throw
Seeing your love torn apart
Leaves her crying, screaming into her tear-soaked pillow
To the lonely widow
Look around you
You think you're so alone
So lost with no one to turn to
Do you see how you've chased away
Every friend you ever made
They reach out
And you draw further in
Shoving them away
Until they're too weak, too tired to try again
To the person lying in t
Dyed WaxWhy? Why do you hate colouring?
What do you mean why? I can never keep the dyed wax within the lines, i always go just outside, dipping my toes into the deep end only to hear the lifeguard's whistle bringing me back to reality.
But what about the cigarettes, why do burn marks line your hip?
The incineration brings me to life, the ashes scar my skin to remind me that pain exists, you just have to learn to feel it.
And the razor?
What about it? The sweet feel of the metal pressing slow then quick, it brings sweet release, it leaves scars to scrub away with days of sponges and scar cream. The razor helps more than anything.
They take me higher, take me far away, take me to a new level of life where no one can touch me, no one. Dont you dare call me a druggie. But i wont deny that i'm an addict to living on the edge.
Why do you do it? Why don't you give in to sleep?
I lie awake because even as sleep tugs on my sleeve I scream so i lie awake with thoughts creeping in,
The Boy Who Wouldnt EatIf you can flutter
I have failed you,
for you were not forged
to be so insubstantial as that
You were writ
to be an epic fable
of endings ignored,
of outlasting your body
through the sheer will
of a writers starving heart
through a broken, bowed
but bravely abiding body
that fights the soul
to comprehend Beauty.
BeautyI'd rather wear flowers in my hair,
forming a delicate chain
Than diamonds around my neck,
covering my tender blue veins
For with every precious petal
and every lucent leaf
I'm a living lesson
teaching beauty can not be bought
But rather it grows and flourishes
with every living thought
Fearing MeI'm not afraid to cry
and I do it
a lot more than you would guess.
It isn't always sadness,
I just feel like I need to,
feel everything so strongly
that it's the only way
to let go for a moment
because if I hold on for too long,
if my grip gets too tight
I'll break myself,
I will break you like glass
and we will both
I am a good guy
who hasn't yet found a way
to show it,
I am a good guy
who still identifies with the villains,
hides everything important
anything to throw you
off of my trail....
and I don't know why,
but I am trying.
Maybe I think
that if you could see me,
the real me,
you wouldn't want to look anymore,
want to be anywhere near me,
and the idea
that I can't add up
to be enough for you,
to be enough for me,
is so fucking heart breaking
I can hardly fathom it.
I can't say that it doesn't hurt
because it does,
it hurts a whole hell of a lot,
I've come to depend on pain,
to befriend misery
you're just a question marki met you so long ago
but back then our bodies were made of metal
and nowadays they’re made of the blades of
grass and dirt settling
underneath my fingernails.
my fingers are having a hard time
reaching the keys and
my organs are shaking mostly because i haven’t
eaten in two days but also
because i’m worried about the things you're doing to yourself.
we didn’t meet very long ago at all but it feels like forever ago
and you say you don’t know me
that you don’t know anyone
but baby you're turning into a skeleton and i’m peeling back my skin
to try and reach my bones, just like you.
i hope you're happy,
i’m covering the hard wood floors now
the bits and pieces splattered.
they are calling it a suicide but i’m calling it
a way to see my brain and
just how dark it has become, and honestly
i don’t want you to try and see about your’s.
i’m mourning the loss of my heart and wish you weren’t either -
Sound PoemIthrumden, ithrumden delsum
nith mul thruss elmrissull.
Eth rut mundelliss
Curmiette dessel renrin
irme trell ithrumden.
The partyFlashing lights
Smoke all around
About to pass out
My head starts to hurt
I can't take this anymore
So without saying anything
I find the exit
And escape that place
"How can someone have fun in there?"
as love for summer fades.late morning-
there's the tease of
snow in the clouds,
in the air, and the trees
have finally lost their
the sunlight is damp.
alters the room
as it graces my skin,
and for once
i don't wake up right away.
instead i lay
between my memory bitten
sheets, and i think
about all the times he said
that he hated winter.
i don't remember
when i began to love it,
and i don't care.
nothing can shatter that.
obligation steam machineas always
grinding the cankerous
of your cognition
until the lack of compassion
leaves you unlubricated
seized frozen bound stuck
only then the machine of
your fears will burst to steam
squealing to suckle
at the genius of my
the unsung soiled hero
of middle-class ferocity
savior of the undeserving
winding slowly deftly dying
martyr to the self-justified cause
Coming HomeComing down the ramp I spotted you in the crowd
Your tenderloin skin always stands out
Your aura was particularly bright that day
Whirling dervish colors in the pale sun
You wore a chauffeurs cap and held a sign that said “Anyone”
I knew that I wasn’t anyone, so I walked away
“Strange days,” someone said, and I agreed
I hate crowds and old garbled memories
Arriving home, my wife and cat didn’t recognize me
I looked in the mirror and noticed that I was someone else
Still carrying my old baggage, I turned away
I should have taken your limo
Let me....Flick on the lighter
Turn up the volume
Let me feel the base
In every step, every breath
Once i cant tell up from down
Left from right
Let me lean on you
For a moment, for a day
When night falls
Or suns rise
Let me take it in
If only for remembrance, a memory
If the world becomes too much
And i stagger, slip, and fall
Let me go
My hand out of your grasp, your everything gone
PetalsThe grass tickled between her toes as her father toiled away with the roses by the letterbox. She watched his fingers weave between the thorns to pat the soil around each bush, humming to some John Lennon song she couldn't put a name to. Despite the sun just tipping the horizon, she saw sweat prickling his brow and his eyes squinting against the light. The fine lines on his face were suddenly accentuated by shadow, and for a moment, she swelled with wonder.
'Maria, come here,' he said, waving her over. 'You're not going to learn anything sitting all the way over there.'
Excitement sparked her limbs into motion, and she crawled over to sit next to him, careful to tuck her skirt beneath her thighs to avoid the dirt.
He picked up a pair of clippers from beside him. 'Now, you need to snipe back these diseased parts here and there from the base of the plant. It helps it grow better.'
Snipping off two pieces of wood with ease, he deposited them in Maria's outstretched hand. Their rough textu
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