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You ChooseI'm sorry honey, please don't weep
I made a promise I can't keep
Now hush darling it'll be okay
You have so much to live for, please one more day
A little girl, playing near the well
Would you be able to forgive yourself if that little girl fell?
A guitar, staying nearby
Won't you give that song a try?
Fall asleep and wake up crying
But babe is that really worth dying?
I told you I'm fine but that's not all true
Truth be told I'm dying without you
If I leave you now
It's really just a matter of how
I told you I'd be okay
But babe I can't take another day
Please for me
Please try to stay, to see
I'm weak, but you're so strong
Realize that following my example is wrong
Put down the gun
Stand in the rain and try out the sun
Don't try to forget me
But don't let yourself miss me
Remember that it's you I love
I just couldn't take another hit, the extra shove
You're not to blame
I'm the one with all the shame
Just promise me when you wake and I'm gone tomorrow
Don't let my example be the one
The HospitalThe walls keep closing in
Such a frightening surprise
The ceiling's coming down
What an unpleasant demise
The filter's barely running
Is there no water or is it just me
The doorbell keeps ringing
Wonder who that could be
The ground is getting closer
I reach but fall anyway
The air is slowly seeping
Through the cracks and into the hallway
The breaths keep getting shorter
I feel a buckle in my knee
The coughing keeps getting harder
Now is that blood I see
The paramedics say calm down
But I know there's no point in fighting
The lights are mixing with the sound
Now from night into white-lighting
The walls come at me from all directions
Another turn, here we go again
The breaths won't come anymore
And now here we go, one more spin
The coughs are choking
Blood is everywhere
The glass is breaking
Oh god this isn't fair
The footsteps are pounding
Are they coming near or going there
The pain is unrelenting
Is that bright light growing, dear
The morphine won't kick in
Is it night or is it day
Whats this play called again?They say hold it together honey
But I'm falling apart
They say play it safe
But I gave you my heart
They tell me lies
Like the promises you will never keep
They tell me things
Like how to not take that leap
They whisper words in my ear
And tell me not to trust you
They shout again at me
And tell me how I'm wrong to choose you
They ask me questions
But I don't have an answer
They ask me things
But they might as well be spreading the cancer
They push in needles
Feel the morphine drip
They inject poison
Feel the numbing in every fingertip
They think they're helping
But I'm just getting worse
They think everything's fine
But someone help me, things aren't going as rehearsed
CommasNever mind the goodbye,
It's much harder than hello.
Never mind the goodbye,
I don't want it to be so.
Never mind the goodbye,
I don't want this to end.
Never mind the goodbye,
This isn't a come-and-go trend.
WantI want to be your first thought in the morning,
Your last thought at night.
I want to be your favourite hello,
And the one to whom you never want to say goodbye.
I want to look at your words,
And know that they're for me.
I want to read your lips,
And not have this doubt in the things you say.
I want to be your shoulder to cry on,
To be your strength when you're torn and weak.
I want to be your light in the dark,
To hold you close when you feel alone.
I want to be the reason for your smile,
The one that isn't forced.
I want to be the light in your eyes,
The one that never burns out.
I want to be your reason,
Selfish as it may seem.
I want to be your only one,
I want you to love me.
Where Am I?I'm lost
Everything I've ever had
All I am
My heartbeat stills
Yet the water still ripples
As I sink to the ocean floor
My cries are drowned out
For the yelling will not cease
My voice is gone
For no one's here to listen
My words aren't lies
But no one believes me
I sit here in silence
Watching it all turn to ashes
A place so broken
A time so still
It all ends with the beginnings
As heaven mixes to form hell
Plaid Dresses, Rainbow HeartsShe drew rainbow hearts across rain-soaked pavement
Hoping they wouldn't get washed away.
But each time the second half was drawn
The rainclouds would come out to play
She believed in a world of fearies
Sat for hours hanging paper hearts
Not on her sleeve but on her wall
Just to see them torn, bound to fall
She laughed at the horror movies
Shuddered at the mention of the grim reaper's name
She cut just deep enough
To forget how close to her skin her mother held the flame
She ironed her hair
Or left it a curly mess
She danced in the rain
And wore jeans under her dress
With sharpie ink
She'd line scarves
And to her skin went a blade
Trying to forget with each letter she'd carve
She smiled at the smell
Of wet leaves on an autumn day
She fronted a carefree life
Of wishing her problems away
She forgot the stories
Her grandfather told
She remembered the nightmares
In which her fears would unfold
She closed her eyes
At the sound of an infant's wail
She tried to drown out thoughts
With no avai
To lifeTo the relenting lover
Do you realize the position you put yourself in
Each love comes on so strong
Yet dies, leaving you weak
They spare not a thought for you
The words that haunt you are the words you are so quick to speak
To the dying child
Look what you've done
You've brought comfort
With arms too small to wrap around
And a laugh that tugs on each heart
You cry and to words they listen
Every time your heartbeat weakens they fall apart
To the fighting couple
Listen to yourselves grow louder
See your child shaking
Needing to be held
Your little girl wants to know it'll be okay
But every word you toss
Every object you throw
Seeing your love torn apart
Leaves her crying, screaming into her tear-soaked pillow
To the lonely widow
Look around you
You think you're so alone
So lost with no one to turn to
Do you see how you've chased away
Every friend you ever made
They reach out
And you draw further in
Shoving them away
Until they're too weak, too tired to try again
To the person lying in t
Dyed WaxWhy? Why do you hate colouring?
What do you mean why? I can never keep the dyed wax within the lines, i always go just outside, dipping my toes into the deep end only to hear the lifeguard's whistle bringing me back to reality.
But what about the cigarettes, why do burn marks line your hip?
The incineration brings me to life, the ashes scar my skin to remind me that pain exists, you just have to learn to feel it.
And the razor?
What about it? The sweet feel of the metal pressing slow then quick, it brings sweet release, it leaves scars to scrub away with days of sponges and scar cream. The razor helps more than anything.
They take me higher, take me far away, take me to a new level of life where no one can touch me, no one. Dont you dare call me a druggie. But i wont deny that i'm an addict to living on the edge.
Why do you do it? Why don't you give in to sleep?
I lie awake because even as sleep tugs on my sleeve I scream so i lie awake with thoughts creeping in,
the truth about growing up
1. It's easier when you don't think.
1. It starts early,
on a cloudy day when you recall
the 'childhood memories' of
two summers ago,
that's when you start your backslide into
2. On the bright side
you won't notice this until you're
good and ripe in age,
so maybe it doesn't matter
3. That tightness in your chest?
The feeling that you're not ready
to take on the rest of your life; it
4. It stews in the pit of your stomach
makes you doubt,
but there will be days when you look back
on the mountains you climbed -
the raging rivers you crossed -
and you'll have a sneaking suspicion you were
more prepared than you thought.
5. There's nothing like your own bed.
6. Laundry will never smell right
without mom's sweat and tears.
But you still have to separate lights from darks,
keep the zippers pulled tight
and the buttons unhooked.
7. There is comfort in your parents' presence.
8. Things change
the future gnaws and rips
Stranger's funeralUnder the clouds
Under the rain
Staring at the coffin
At a stranger's funeral
We're all alone
Feeling the storm
But not the pain
For he's but a stranger
And the graves around us
Are just there
Keeping us company
During this empty moment
LullabyHush, my baby,
Be still, don't cry.
Lay with me
A little while.
Close your eyes,
Slow your breath.
Hear your heart
Inside your chest?
Your heart is strong,
It guides you well.
Be sure to listen
To what it tells.
I hear him now,
Outside the room.
It won't be long,
He'll find us soon.
Now close your eyes,
Slow your breath,
And rest your head
Upon my chest.
Southern modernizationBlack comedy market economy, banana peel political humour, cards with the cartels, the solution free room service and credit the union. Bolivar twist, ding dong dollar under control, valley of the coin desert with no value. Gangsta paradise, the victims are the people. Big mac and cold conflict interference a part of it all. In little Mexico you’d need a high horse to jump the great border wall that boasts its peak.
Viracocha melts waters unlike those it rose from, making waves of out of metal oceans to overtake the current south, re-steel, re-take, tech-mechs the entire south into neo-Machu Picchu, cyberpunk music moulding, reshaping old society into an new age, iron dynasty, fresh coat for an old, ancient look. The coattails of Quetzalcoatl if he were a modern man pull together the merge of future and long passed past..techno temples and the like.
CarolineYou loved the fire
of rogues -
imperfect men who shot up
the endings of the day
and drank down
too much beauty.
And like one of them,
you bellied with rebellion,
felt his tense seed
toil where women
and craved his notoriety.
Poor girl -
his verses won the day
and the call of words
was too fickle a lover
for any constant star.
Don't blame yourself -
are more attractive
and all poets are
Darkest MoonI celebrate my right to live;
To the dismay of some, perhaps
It should be noted
These words I write, however true
Are only portions of the moon
I’ve decide to shine light upon.
But who am I to preach respect?
Who Am I to preach equality?
An advocate for re-personification
Of the female gender
But exhibits cannibalistic characteristics
Within dark spaces.
I am a shadow
Hidden within an Eggshell, painted pink,
Waiting to hatch.
Is the darkness
The night brought upon us.
things to tell you before i leave for collegeto mrs hatcher:
i promise that one day i will write that poem you asked me for
(the only thing you ever asked me for)
and i will finally tell you that you deserve
so much more.
to mr. walker:
i promise that i will not pity you.
i promise that i will not envy you.
i promise that you will always be part of my forget-me-nots and marigolds.
i promise to always be grateful.
i promise to be careful.
i promise to be crazy.
i promise that i will remember what it feels like to be needed
and what it feels like to let someone who needs you down.
i promise that i will never resent you for asking for help
and that i will always be there when you do.
i promise that even sixty years from now,
i will not be surprised to find a letter from you in my mailbox.
i promise to always remember what it felt like to be young and crazy with you,
how scared and lonely we were.
i will remember that we both survived it,
and that we'll survive this, too.
You Were Born Missing SomethingYour skin is glazed with crystals of frost
and your heart's valves are close to
freezing shut tight
from being devoid of something
Though I am torrents of hail, whirling storms,
warm tears streaking,and tornadoes of rage
that flow uncontrollably through my veins
and out of my mouth,
every breath near you is warm
because your words are so cold
I am a natural disaster at its finest
with bones twisted in painful angles
and a crooked spine
you were born spineless
Let me....Flick on the lighter
Turn up the volume
Let me feel the base
In every step, every breath
Once i cant tell up from down
Left from right
Let me lean on you
For a moment, for a day
When night falls
Or suns rise
Let me take it in
If only for remembrance, a memory
If the world becomes too much
And i stagger, slip, and fall
Let me go
My hand out of your grasp, your everything gone
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